An update...

So it's certainly been a while since I have written a blog post in this blog.
Surely that's a good thing, right?
Since the whole purpose of this particular blog is for me to be able to write about all the things that are wrong or I just need to resolve in my head.

But, honestly, things haven't been great.
In fact, things couldn't be worse (over-exaggeration; things can always be worse!)

This isn't going to be a long post (seeing as I'm technically meant to be doing school work - yay for year 12) but the main things that aren't wonderful in my life at the moment are:

- Was in an increasingly bad relationship with a guy for over a year - broke up with him about a month ago, but honestly he has been a jerk since. We tried being friends, but to be friends you can't just go around ignoring the other person, then when you want their attention expecting them to be 150% focused solely on you. There has to be some give, especially since you were in a relationship with them for a long time. Sorry, but I am not willing to put myself in the position that he put me in for so long anymore.

- Someone I knew for a long time passed away recently, and that hasn't been easy. I have never had to go through that type of situation - I mean, I've lost pets before, but it was something that was expected. To see someone who, in my memories, was so healthy and happy and willing to open up her arms and let me into her life, and then to see her health just completely deteriorate isn't easy, to say the least.

- Work is so freaking stressful. I work in a store where I only know 5% of the information I need to know. The industry that I work in is also one that you develop your knowledge of over decades - you can't just learn it all in one day of work training. Because I'm already anxious enough as it is, having to constantly ask for help and know that if customers come in and I don't know the answer I'm pretty well useless to the company, and it's just getting to the stage of ridiculousness. And now we are stocking like two more companies products in our store! Gah! It's insane! I feel like I'm doing a disservice to the company ...
Sure, if I had the time and ability to learn more it would be OK. But being in my last year of school before university, I just don't have the time.

- I feel like due to the breakup of my former boyfriend and myself, some of my friends who used to be really close with me no-longer want to spend time with me. Perhaps this is because they don't know how to react around me. I feel so lonely. At the same time, however, I do not want to be surround by people.

Anyway, that's all the time I can afford to spend on blog writing for now.

I hope everyone else's lives are less complicated!