Love Story?

I know my blog posts (the oh so many of them) are all very sad and mopey - the reason for that is that I blog when I feel sad or emotional (not often) because writing is how I get everything that is on my mind out.
I'm a bit of an intravert (when not around my friends) so when it comes to expressing my feelings, well there is skill I'm definitely lacking there. I'm trying to work on that, but sometimes I like to keep what I'm feeling to the confines of writing... whether it be in a public place (*cough blog cough*) or in my secret little diary (which is currently playing hide and seek and winning...)

So, here is yet another of my sad posts - one day I will try to post something emotionally uplifting.

Have you ever been in love?

Like, so truly in love that you just wish you could spend every moment of the day with said person (who, for all purposes of this post, shall be known as Rolph).
Well Rolph and I have been dating for about, err, two months or so and I am so happy to be with him - he is the most amazing person in the world. When I see Rolph - not to sound corny... well yeah ok I love corny things - the day seems to become so much brighter.
I have been in three relationships previously (you know how teen-love seems to go - they didnt last that long) and finally it seems I've found a guy who really is the beez kneez!!!
It's like one of those fairy tales where there's lil' old Cinderella who was waiting for her Prince Charming to come along and make her life 100000000 times better.
Everyday Rolph comes up with these little conclusions of the day about me - and they're really, really cute - like the kind of cute you can only dream of.
An example of one of these conclusions is: that he is the luckiest guy in the world because he has me in his life (cuteness factor!!!!!!!!) X3

But today he told me that he had a conclusion, but he wasn't sure how to say it and tha he'd tell me when he thought of a word to describe it.
I thought, yeah ok Rolph that's fair enough.
Then a bit later he told me that he wasn't sure if I'd like the conclusion he came to, so he would think of something else.
So - being me - I asked him why he thought I wouldn't like it.
And he told me that it doesn't matter and he'd think of something else.

Holy Whack-a-Moley!!! What does this mean!??!?!?!?!?!
I started freaking out - so I asked him if it was something bad.

He replied that he didn't know!!!!!

HOLY WHACK-A-MOLEY!!!!!!!!!!! ALARM BELLS GOING OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I asked him if he would tell me what it was.
He kept saying that it didn't matter and not to worry about it.

So I asked him again.

Then he said that it was just something he'd noticed over the past few days and that if he still felt the same way about it on monday or tuesday (next week - today is friday - and yes I hope Rebecca Black's song started playing in your head, because it did in mine... and no, I personally am not a fan of the song) he would tell me.

ALARM BELLS ALARM BELLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I asked: Please Rolph, tell me

And he said "no" and then started to talk about his assignment about snakes.
(We are still in school - two years to go then onto uni!!)

I honestly don't want to talk about snakes - I want to know if I've done something bad or idiotic or anything!!!!

I've had too many bad relationships (albeit good for part of the time) and little things like this freak me out!!!!!!
I don't want whatever this "conclusion" is to be the Achilles Heel of our relationship.

Honestly, I don't know what to do - I also don't want to worry my parents about anything being wrong because they've been here through the worst of the past two years (and trust me, there was a lot of baddy bad stuff that happened - teenage drama and stuff).

Rolph is the perfect guy as far as I'm concerned. I don't want it to end.